Never would of thought

I'm sitting here thinking. I never thought I'd have to be on meds. Of any type. First it started with depression and anxiety... Then bi polar and anxiety. Then my back got messed up so start on pain meds. At one time I was on over 10-15 pills a day before pain meds. Eventually I've stabilized the depression (getting rid of useless man-baggage never being good enough). My anxiety is medicated as is my bi polar. Then the pain meds kept not working tho I was still taking them. Then being diagnosed with RA. So another med added for that. Finally my doctor reduced the Vicodin. My organs thank him. He put me on MS Contin instead of the dosage of Vicodin I was taken. I now take 9 pills over a 24 hour period (not counting otc) MS Contin 2x a day, Vicodin 3x a day as needed. 1 Ra med a day, 1 anxiety med a day. 2 bipolar med a day. My pain levels are stabilized finally. I'm hoping one day to reduce the pain meds once the RA is under control.... Hopefully without killing my immune system. Hopefully... Now if I could quit smoking that'd be great. One day at a time... One step at a time.